Hello people of FurNation! It is Wednesday, April 18, 2012, and this is my first blog on this site. My first blog in a couple of years actually. I’m going to start this off by saying that I am glad I joined this site. I feel like I’m able to talk more freely here than I ever could on Facebook or even Youtube.
It is also my second day as a member of this site (and as a member of a Furry Social Network altogether). I’m enjoying this so far. But I want to get right down to this blog.
I’m not an expert on blogging, but I think the general idea is to basically write whatever you feel like writing. I want to cover topics. Today, I’m going to sort of introduce myself before getting to any topics. I am an average guy, 20 years old, and I am making changes in my life for the better. Becoming more sociable is one of those changes, and I knew joining this site would help.
First and foremost, I’m going to reveal that I do not believe in God. Although I do believe in an Afterlife. I am not part of any religion. I am simply a Spiritual Person.
I enjoy most types of food. I am mainly a meat eater. I’m a little on the weird side when it comes to food though; I can’t stand pickles, or ranch dressing. I eat salads without dressing. I like most other sauces though: Ketchup, Barbecue, Mustard, Tartar, Hot sauce, Teriyaki, Sesame, General Tso’s, etc. If I haven’t tried it, I’m willing to try.
I enjoy watching serious and dark television series (Game of Thrones). A little bit of drama (Smallville) and Zombies! (The Walking Dead). I also like to try different Anime series. My favorite Anime is a not well known one called Ergo Proxy. The main character is almost a mirror-image of me. My favorite fighting Anime is still Dragonball Z. I analyze shows and movies, picking them apart, but only after watching them the first time. (Naruto is the exception)
I will literally watch ANY movie. If I don’t like it, I never watch it again. I try not to have a most-favorite movie, but if I did, I would have to go with The Dark Knight.
Favorite animation movie……..still deciding on that.
I have lived in the State ofTexasmy entire life, graduated from High School in 2009, and decided to start life before thinking about College. Of course I wanted nothing to do with school at the time, as I was finally getting out of it. I attended the Job Corps program from late 2010 to December 2011. There I trained to repair computers and obtained my A+ Certification. Now I am back in my ‘hometown’ trying to get my life going where it needs to go (which is to a bigger city with the job to go with my Certification). But that’s job-wise. I haven’t even begun to tell about Life’s Work-wise.
A Life’s Work is when you do what you love doing. I like writing, singing, and movie making. So somewhere along the line, I have crazy dreams of being an Author, Rock Star, and a Movie Director. The bad part about that is: I’ve never written a book, never sung on stage, and tried to direct people in acting once or twice – the result was laughable, so I turned it into an action-comedy.
Anyways, moving on before I get into too much detail. I once considered myself a master at Hacky Sack. I could never stall the damn thing, so I specify on that by saying that I was a ‘Master at Striking’. Keyword in that is ‘was’. After High School, I neglected my training, and gained weight, etcetera, etcetera. I still kick it around a few times a month. It’s hard to get back into. But I’ve lost some of that weight already, which should give me an advantage. Now, I never once had a mindset that I was the best in the whole school, I only considered myself a master because I would train until my body couldn’t do it anymore and I was a Senior in High School who had been introduced to it as a Freshmen. Plus I taught two of my high school friends that year.
I’ve been on computers my entire life. My first computer was a Windows 95. I think I was 6 years old when I first used the keyboard and mouse. Moved on to Windows XP in High School (which I’m using now because of this crappy laptop, or Craptop) Used Vista for a VERY short period of time, and learned the ways of Windows 7 along with a bit of Ubuntu on the side during my stay at Job Corps. Never touched a Mac though, too expensive.
I’ve been a gamer for even longer. I estimate I was 4 years old when I picked up the Nintendo controller. Been a gamer ever since. My current life situation prevents me from playing games. I came in late on the Xbox scene, as I FINALLY got one (at Job Corps) last year. I had to order a new DVD drive and do some soldering to fix it though. I mainly play shooters, fighters, or RPGs. I do not play Call of Duty. I consider Wrestling games as fighting games. I’m currently waiting on Halo 4.
I do play MMOs. My first MMO experience was Runescape back in 2006. Personal issues arose, and I had to stop playing. A year later, I got back on and leveled up my character to the point where he is now. He is still there. I log on, walk around, and log off nowadays. Please don’t ask me to play on there. I won’t give this character name because people I know in Real Life know the name. I then tried other various MMOs before and after my first World of Warcraft experience when I turned 18 in late 2009. After two years of dormancy, I finally got the starter edition and started playing again. I also play Perfect World. I can’t play any games now, as I no longer have my own internet, but when I can, I will announce it.
I like rock music and some of it’s sub-genres like Metalcore, Power Metal, Post-grunge, Post-Hardcore, Mainstream, Female vocals, etc. I’m always on the lookout for new bands to get into. My favorite new band this year is Across The Sun. You can find a few of their songs on Youtube.
Now I’m going to do something I’ve never done before on the Internet, I’m going to go deeper:
I am not perfect and no one can be. I am not a typical young adult who attends a University and drives a fancy car their parents gave them, then goes out and parties on the weekends and gets wasted, then jumps into bed with the first person he sees. I am the total opposite. I do not consume alcohol, and I will never do so. I will never smoke cigarettes, I never have and never will do any type of drug. I chose to start my life instead of go through college. I wanted to try life without school before making that decision.
I have made good, neutral, and poor decisions in my life. They have led me to this point. I do have regrets, but I cannot change the past, I can only move forward and work to create a better future. I try to live in the present.
I currently live alone. There was once a time where this did not bother me, but now, I feel saddened by this. I try to spend time with people to get my mind off of it. I try to exercise on a routine, but I fall off and get back on it again. There are times when I’m a loner, then there are times when I’m a Leader. It’s hard to explain. There are things about my life I am working on changing for the better. I am going through a change and it is difficult. I am more active than I once was. I also yearn to find the right person for me. The one that makes me whole. The one to venture through the world with. To feel emotion with. To Live with. I am longing to hold that person in my arms and feel their heart beat against mine. I long for the person to love.
Sounds corny? Perhaps, but it is the inevitable truth I’ve run away from in the past. Now that I understand what it is like to be in love, and the other person not love you back, I now have a heartache that can only be healed by facing this truth and taking action. I plan to soon begin the search for The One. I am conflicted by this, as I know my life isn’t on track just yet. But when I do get my life going where it needs to, I will know the time is right to start searching.
Many of you may ask, “Why is this guy sharing all this?” I feel the need to connect with people now. Perhaps it is just because I am alone. Maybe a combination of both. I’ve shut myself off from the world for so long, I feel the time has come to open up to it. This is a big part of it. I have read that this site is a place where everyone can be free and open without being bashed over petty differences. I want to get things off my chest that I can’t speak about on places like Facebook.
To answer some possible questions you may have:
Explanation of my username – ‘Acreo’ is the name of a character I created long ago (I think I was 8 years old), who is a human plagued by a curse in which he transforms into a cheetah-warrior. ‘Crimsonstar’, my last name, I took from a song I wrote last year at Job Corps called ‘My Crimson Star’.
Why I joined in the first place – I want to connect with people, give and receive advice with problems. Be a part of something where barriers like Race, Religion, Orientation, and skin color don’t matter. These are labels that society has placed upon us. In the end, we are all human. We are who we are, nothing changes that. We may discover new things about ourselves, but it won’t change who we are. Any way, to end my answer to this question; I felt driven to try this out.
I tend to not message other people until they message me. I will hang out in the chat room if I want to randomly talk. I will almost always respond to comments though. But I think the norm around here is to welcome new members. I will try my best to do that.
I plan to upload music for everyone to enjoy and get an insight as to what I like. Plus to spread the knowledge of lesser-known bands to others. I don’t know what I’m going to do video-wise. I’m not sure what I can do without revealing my real life identity. Maybe a few music videos?
So I guess that’s the end of my first blog. I’m going to end it with a question. What else is there to do? And what’s up with this Role-playing thing I keep reading about? I’m not really role playing right now. This is the real me, just with a different name. Remember everyone; I’m still very new to this ‘Fursona’ thing.
Plus one little tidbit: If you want an ENTIRE list of my favorite bands, send me a message, and I will type it up and throw it on my Info page. Otherwise, I’m thinking about leaving it blank for a while, because, it’s a pretty large list.
I always welcome feedback. Tell me if you have any topic ideas or want me to talk about something. Till next Blog everyone!