Recently I have felt as if my entire life goal is about to wrap up. In a few years I will graduate college and get a career. That is it. The end, game over. Our culture dictates that is what you are supposed to do with your life. That being the endgame scares me. I know there is obviously more to it than that, but I can't help but feel like I want to do more with my life than work, settle down and maybe have kids. I want adventure. I want to maximise my time here on Earth. I only have one shot at this, ya know?
Here I am, 1:40 pm, in pajamas sitting in front of my computer, hyped up on coffee and lacking sleep. Typing this. Imagine everything I could be doing. But I can't. Money, time, and transportation issues force me to sit here and contemplate life. I need to get out more. I need to see the world and meet new people before it is too late. So, I am making it my goal these next few semesters to do more. Sleep less. Have fun while I still can. And when I graduate, I will keep doing this, until the day I die. I think that is the only satisfying thing I can do. Just keep learning, keep experiencing new things.
Shame money is always going to be some sort of barrier.
It is hard to believe I am already 20 years old. The mortality clock is ticking.