Yesterday was a pretty big day for me and I can't tell if I'm feeling guilt for acting like such a jackass or confidence because I stood up to a girl who broke my heart. Heres what happened:
Yesterday I got a phone call from an old friend named Brandy who I was best friends with 2 years ago at EWU during my first year of college. I loved this girl and she rejected me and refused to give me a chance because of her own various reasons, reasons I still don't understand. She went overseas in the Navy and sold me her car since I wrecked mine during the winter of that year and during the whole thing I fucked up and lost the title and had to contact her overseas about the car and to make things short, she called me and declared us no longer friends and I cut off all ties with hers. Mind you, I loved this girl and I wanted to be everything to her and when she did that it broke me.
Well she called me yesterday and said she was coming up to my house to buy the car back and I agreed and so I spent the next 3 hours or so steamed and pissed because I really didn't want to see her but I wanted to get rid of the shit heap of the car. The time came and she showed up at my house with 2 friends, a girl whom I think I met before and some new unlucky bastard who was probably in the same situation I was 2 years ago. She immediately tried to give me a hug since it's been 2 years since we'd seen each other and I immediately backed off, opened the car door and told her to buy the car and get out. We signed the papers and I left, didn't even say bye to her. As soon as I finished signing and put the money in my pocket I was out of there and her and friends took the car and left. The entire time she was there she kept asking me why I was mad and I didn't say anything and kept my focus on signing the papers and she left in tears which felt pretty good.
Later that night she texted me asking why I was being so cold and asking what she did to deserve the treatment and I told her bluntly, "I just don't like you". I explained to her about how I felt when she called me that one morning 2 years ago and she didn't remember the phone call at all and I told her word for word, "Look I don't care that you remember the phone call or not because I do and it tore me to pieces. I'm done with it, don't contact me again" and so she apologized and asked for my forgiveness whenever I felt like giving it to her. I don't plan on it and hopefully I never have to hear from her again.
So what do you guys think? Did I act unfairly or did I do the right thing? I feel like shit kind of because it's not in my nature to be so harsh but at the same time I feel like it was something that had to be done. I know my parents and other friends think I did the right thing but I can't help but shake this feeling of guilt but at the same time I'm glad I did it.
